I’m Seriously Ready to Throw In The Towel and Just Quit Blogging. Seriously.

This past month has literally (almost) been the straw that breaks the camel’s back. This is a blogger version of someone “going postal” in case you wondered.

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Going postal is an American English slang phrase referring to becoming extremely and uncontrollably angry, often to the point of violence, and usually in a workplace environment. … Between 1970 and 1997, more than 40 people were killed by current or former employees in at least 20 incidents of workplace rage.


I have over 3,300 articles published on my blog – dating back to 2009. I have been blogging since 2004. I get at least 15 emails per day asking me to publish articles, to add a link to so-and-so’s comprehensive, informative article that is just God’s gift to the effing blogging world. I send them the information they need and they agree to my prices.

And then the $#% don’t want to pay.

This is my JOB people. I’m not sitting here doing this shit for pocket change. (You know who you are – you $3 an article buttholes.)

Chris Gumapac – has had me waiting since June 11th, sent the article for publication, and then just ghosted me and didn’t respond till last week just to say, sorry for the delay. Literally. That was IT. Waiting 2 weeks on his payment.

Raine Collins – she sent me an article at the end of May and still has not paid to have it published!

The list goes on.

Some of my blogging friends have said, “sign up for affiliate programs … I make a ton of money with mine!” In what effing universe? I have affiliate programs on my blog – have had most of these for YEARS. Know how much money I’ve made? Not a damn cent.

I don’t see how y’all make money on Amazon. I add product links, I share on social media and I think I’ve made a total of $30 in the past 12 years.

Sometimes I want to kick myself for letting go of the domain name lifeinahouseoftestosterone.com – because now some non-existent ‘we buy ugly houses’ type of people bought the domain name. Not that I care – let them deal with all the testosterone, male enhancement, steroid products and whatnot the name invokes when people don’t bother to actually VISIT the website to SEE what it is about. But my domain and page authority were great, as was my domain rating. Now I’m back at “beginner stages” with what looks a “new” blog of only 2.7 years.

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I have over $350 in outstanding invoices right now. I have a $1300 bill that has to be paid in 4 months. I don’t even want to get started on all the blog fees, household expenses, FOOD, etc. If it were just me, meh, I’d be fine. But Amelia and her parents are in rough shape as well. My blogging has been helping them whenever needed.

Do you know how hard it is to have to say, “I’m sorry I can’t come help out with my granddaughter because I have no gas in the car and no money to put any in?”

It fucking sucks.

Before you even ask, yes, I’ve been looking for outside work. Due to arthritis in my knees; however, I cannot stand for long periods of time. Usually, about 3-4 hours just does me in and I’m worthless the rest of the day. Finding a customer service job where I’d be face-to-face with people isn’t working either because of some ongoing dental issues (which insurance does not pay so it comes out-of-pocket) that need to be taken care of. So I’ve been trolling for telecommute jobs that I can do.

Yes, I’m having a ‘bitch-and-moan’ fest at the moment. I’m stressed and I don’t see an answer on the horizon. If it’s there – my nearsighted behind can’t see it. If you feel like donating, you can. If you don’t – trust me, I get it. 2020 has just SUCKED for everyone … and I didn’t even get a damn stimulus check.

It is what it is. If this keeps up much longer; however, I think Life in a House just might end up winding down and saying goodbye to the blogging world.

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